This must be how it feels to be a 70-year-old starting at McDonalds.
I’m the only webdev on a team of engineers. They don’t talk down to me, which is awesome, but they usually don’t have to explain the things I ask about. Maybe it’s okay. I just hate to bother people. Hate. When I have a question, there’s this irrational part of me that wants to stay very quiet and not upset anyone while they’re busy. It can be hazardous to upset people. But sitting on a question is like twiddling my thumbs, except more likely to cause stomach ulcers.
This is a recurring pattern of behavior. When I was at Fenwick & West, there were occasions where I didn’t report a serious problem until it became critical. 100% irrational behavior, and the focus was making sure no one was mad at me. It would be wise to remind myself that only the visceral danger is avoided. People are still angry at the consequences of my inactions.
